As I consider the challenges my friends face I feel almost guilty about only dealing with a summer cold as I start packing. I still have 2 weeks of summer school to teach, but I love dealing with only 2 to 4 students at a time. Maybe, just maybe I'll be able to create a little bit of academic magic...
Several people have helped me develop a plan for making this new place mine. Part of the process requires I "explore" the stuff I've been living with. This exercise is helping me learn about my "sixth" sense. Frustrating not having the language to describe what I pick-up though...it's like trying to describe color to someone whose been blind from birth. One thing I can explain using the color analogy is that the energy/emotion that things possess can be complimentary just like colors can be complimentary. And putting other things too close results in something akin to nails on a black board, a shreaks of a colicky infant, with some audio feedback thrown into the mix! Now it seems to obvious, I don't know how I missed it!
I also have a responsibility to clean up the mess of energy/emotion me living here has caused. Haven't quite figured out how that's going to work, but I'm sure on of you will pop up with the needed information any time now.
Oh well, break time is over. Back to my boxes. Peace and joy to you all.
I put in the paperwork for that cute little apartment. Went by to make sure my stackable washer/dryer would fit and met the neighbors. I could be happy there. Keep your fingers crossed.
Thanks to everyone whose provided guidance and support as I plan my move. I'm pleased to report that I am making progress. Grounding has helped me make sense of the jumble of energies surrounding me. I've even discovered some pieces that have complimentary energies...something I didn't expect. The problem is not so much the negativity of energy, but shear chaos of all the competing emotions all these legacy items have absorbed. I'm hoping to be able to move over a 2 week period so that I'll be able to pick and choose the things I really need and want in my home and that includes the energies that come with them. This will be a good thing.
Summer school won't be over until the end of June so my time is limited. My creeping crude has receded into a summer cold, YUK!!! The weather has been volatile; thunderstorms and tornado watches...not as much rain as we need but we're making progress. And we've had enough to extinguish the fires. However, my Fibromyalgia is not likin' the constant changes in barometric pressure. Oh well, small price to pay for the water this environment so badly needs.
Sunday morning I had the television on while I was cleaning, children's show set in medieval times with a dragon. Castle is celebrating its third jubilee and dragon is depressed. He is 300 years old and doesn't have a home, can't remember where he came from. I've been apartment hunting, place I live in now is OK, but just doesn't feel right. I call it "bad juju" from one of the children's movies. But I realized as dragon & Jane talked about home that the problem isn't the apartment it is ME! This is the first place I've lived that wasn't blessed. I realized that regardless of the religion, just the INTENT that this place be a home, sanctuary and/or refuge is what was missing. I am still going to move (I need more space, too much clutter), but instead of just being a place to store stuff I will do a ritual of my own, my intent, and then I will find that thing that has been missing. Now all I have to do is find a suitable place to blessing.
I was inspired to tap into the power of the Blue Moon and we have... RAIN!!! Not a hurricane or a tornado, just rain. Thank you Powers that Be.
Feeling much better thanks to modern medicine and ancient powers. I'm still struggling with my lesson plans though. Used 5 different formats and both paper & digital, ugh! Big roadblock is that everyone knows I live alone & have no life...so I get tapped for all sorts of projects, the latest is book inventory. We have to count all the books in the system & bar code all the ones missed last year. At least I'm not going to have to call all the families who's middlings failed to turn in their books!
Enjoy you weekend. I'm going to go play in the rain!
I thought I was on the mend and decided to keep my dental appointment on Friday. I have 3 teeth in need of capping and it wasn't supposed to be a big deal. No such luck! My 2 hour appointment took almost 4 hours!!! One tooth broke below the gum line, my tongue was swollen, the Novocain took longer to kick in than expected so he gave me more and aimed at a different nerve junction and the fever returned sending me into shivers. Finally got back to school and had the AP2 haul me out to Urgent Care Clinic. Diagnosis very infected sinuses, ears & throat...likely strep. So mega dose of antibiotics and assorted drugs to help dry out my leaky head I manage to get home and to bed. In the middle of the night I realize I can barely stand to get to the bathroom, I haven't got the faintest idea where my phone is and besides who would I call?!? My mother has Alzheimer's, my brother lives an hour away and while I have friends from school...well the idea of calling one of them for help unless I'm really dieing... Never expected to feel this kind of alone. Makes one wonder about one's choices. Somewhat better today; no fever, I can stand and move about without feeling like I'm riding the tea cups at Disneyland, ears have started popping, but my throat still feels like it's on fire, oh and there is that nasty gastrointestinal repercussion following a mega dose of antibiotics. Don't have to work tomorrow and I'm only on call for 3 hours on Monday. Hopefully that will be enough time for me to return to an acceptable level of functionality. Still have to close out school stuff and pack/haul what I will need this summer off campus. Is there ever a convenient time to be this sick?!?
Enjoy this very special holiday. Please share your energy with those serving and those who have served. They have earned our respect and support.
